Love Them

Loving them was the hardest lesson that I ever encountered. They drive me crazy but the Master insisted that I have to love them unconditionally... I tried but it is not working. He looked at me and saw my struggles. I told Him, "What should I do, Master? I am trying but it seems so hard for me to do it myself. Could you help me, please?!" He was surprised by my answer. I think He thinks I am bad (I might be...). It is hard to love, isn't it? I looked into His sad eyes and realized that He still loves me. His smile showed me that He never stopped loving me...but he was mad at me and so sad. He looks disappointed but why?
After my talk to Him, I went home but could not stop thinking of my Master's look. I asked myself, "Why my Master is like this? Why don't He just love His friends? Period. For a while I thought all people are simply doing what I do: love my friends and ignore the rest of the world. But when I went to my bed and before I closed my eyes, a voice was telling me, "Why don't you look to your wife?! She is serving and showing great love to the same people you are having hard time to love. She is not obligated to love your people ( since she is from a different race) but she does. Why do you think she is doing so? (the voice stopped)
Then my eyes opened to see the truth. I went to the mirror to see my face...the true me. I think I know the reason for not being able to love "them"... yes, I think I know it. It is me. It is the past inside me... I need to beg Him to rescue me from me.